Every journey begins with the first step.... But which way do you step????

I was metaphorically asked, if you were stranded on a desert island with only your bible, what would your vision of church be? I often tell people the lesson I learned about love. I talked about if you ever wanted to see how true love is, look at an infant to its mother. I say these things because I thought about what would go through my mind. What state would I be in? I would have fear, hope, lost, crazy, alone, anger, all of that. Because of those feelings and having nothing else but the Word, I would look to it almost instantly for guidance and help. I would pray so hard that God would be there for me and save me.

Now think about yourself now in the comforts of your own home. Does it "feel" the same? Do you instantly grab your bible and find the words to truly talk to Him? I don't. I hate to admit that. My comforts allow me to sit back,rely on my intelligence, and find other ways to make me feel better. And the crazy part is... He calls to me when I do! Almost like a thump to my head, like "stupid... Pay attention..." I think it's time we all stopped and paid attention. Starting with me.

In the military, they are responsible for training so many different personalities to perform the same task because of life or death situations. They break you down to build you back up. Well, this is life or death. We all bring something to the table and need to find a way to unify and create life. In the bible, it states that everyone has a gift necessary to the functions of church. It also states that when two people come together in prayer, so shall it be true. So to me, it would be safe to say when 2 or more come together for Good it creates a church and we should hemp one another. What is your gift from God that you should share with others? We are literally fighting everyday for our lives and need to recognize that we were not made to do it alone. It said to be with God,you must be single. Think about it this way. It's not saying to be alone, it's saying to be on one accord (I know that's somewhere in the bible. Can't remember where lol). There's players on a team,but it's still one team.

We take for granted that we are special. Not only to us and Him, but for others as well. We are all made to be something spectacular. So now,which way do we go? Who do we trust? Don't trust? Keep close? Push away? Allow to know are true selves? Or it's none of their damn business? It starts with ourselves and to thine own self be true. You can lie to family. You can lie to lovers. You can lie to friends, lie in bed, put lye in pretzels,etc... But you can't lie to yourself. You know it to be a lie. Don't ignore it. Your first step I challenge you all with is to be on an island. No phone. no contact. Just you and God. Don't lie to God and ask the question to yourself am I real (or woke I guess)? Am I sincere?(root word meaning without flaw) If I'm not, then why? If I don't know why, will you help me Lord? Here is some reading and as a tip, read before the verses and after and force yourself to have questions. (James 1:22) (John 13:35) (Ephesians 4:3). This message was for you and purposefully sent. We all talk seasons and now is our time to ripen before the harvest.

"People ask to be happy. To be rich. To be successful. Lord I pray for peace and patience and know that you will guide me. May my tears mean something and may my actions be true."

Daddy's girl

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”-Marianne Williamson

"A girl should be two things: classy and fabulous."-Coco Chanel

I would like to think we all have a dad in our life somewhere.  Maybe he might not have been there for you or you may not know him or he might have even not been your real dad, but nevertheless one existed.  Even if none of the above may pertain to you we still have our Almighty Father.  I bring this up to talk to my women today. Don't worry guys.  If you are a dad or in a relationship,  this may help you in finding clarity on what to look for in a mate. I know that is not easy for anyone in life, let alone being a woman. When I look at my example of a woman,  the first one that comes to mind is Kayla.  She's my little lady.  They tell you when you become a dad, your whole life changes. FYI... It did. Lol.  I look at how little boys be around her trying their best to get her attention.  I'm ready to kill them all. I had a conversation with a good friend of mine today about her education and how education is period nowadays, and it made me think of what I want to teach her on becoming a lady. To expand that thought, I wondered what could I teach women about being a lady of God.  For the record,  I understand that I'm not a woman. I am just guy giving a perspective on how a lady can be a woman of God, so please show a little leeway on me.

So what does it take to be a classy lady? First off,  what is your description of a lady?  If you can,  take a minute to describe yourself in detail.  What do you see? Most bible thumpers would say a proverbs 31 woman,  and they would be right.  But let's expand on that.  To me, saying that is like my parents telling me that I need to go to college, and when I got there,  I had no clue what I was suppose to be doing there besides going because they told me to.  What does it say about the role of a woman?  The bible reads that one of a woman's roles is to be a helpmeet. A helpmeet,  is someone who is there to play a supporting role in another's life.  No.  It does not mean that you have to be submissive and that's it.  It pertains to key parts to of a whole.  For instance,  take a jobs of a restaurant.  A host is just as important as a cook, who is just as important as a server and so on.  Their job may not be intensive, but the necessity is there. 

"Dress shabbily and they remember the dress; dress impeccably and they remember the woman."-Coco Chanel

We truly are what we choose to show the world. When I looked at that quote, I was put in mind to our demeanor and how we carry ourselves. Another trait of a classy lady is one who's transparent.  What I mean is a person who has no reason to feel like her actions need to be hidden. I'm not saying tell everybody that you been getting it in everyday,  but someone who can be an example of a good woman but not hiding her flaws to make her look better.  We are all human. We are not perfect.  I say to all of you,  "Everything great is not perfect (pertaining to our daily lives), everything perfect is not always great. (except with God of course)" Does that mean that you can go do hood rat things work your friends?  No.  Heck no!  But what it means is that no one can teach you how to be you,  so go out and be the best you that you can be. Some ways to find out about you are being real to yourself. it's your body; your mind. No one knows you better than you except God. 

This is just a snippet of a long journey.  Please take this with your head held high. Be the one in the poem of Robert Frost "The road not taken" that took the unbeaten path until it's clear for others to see His glory.

1 Timothy 2:9-10New Living Translation (NLT)

9 And I want women to be modest in their appearance.[a] They should wear decent and appropriate clothing and not draw attention to themselves by the way they fix their hair or by wearing gold or pearls or expensive clothes. 10 For women who claim to be devoted to God should make themselves attractive by the good things they do.

To Be Worthy

Today I was thinking about each person's worth and plans for their lives that are around me. It's still amazing to this day that no matter how old a person gets or how many opportunities come their way, they can still find a reason why they can't do something. I remember a long time ago, my good friend Francis told me that he'd rather have a person give 110% effort than a person who had 110% of the potential. So when you think about your worth how do you measure it? Is it by your potential? To me, potential is like having a brand new car with all the packages but not the keys. So today lets see how do we make use of ourselves.


“Sometimes the hardest part of the journey is believing you're worthy of the trip.” 
― Glenn Beck, The Christmas Sweater
“It is difficult to make a man miserable while he feels worthy of himself and claims kindred to the great God who made him.” 
― Abraham Lincoln

In 2 Corinthians 12:10, it talks about how even in our weakest moments we are strong. Sounds crazy right? I mean how can we be strong in our weakest moments?
We can because of God himself made you and he loves you. Too simple of an answer? I will put it together for you. Take a baby for instance. They are helpless and completely dependent on their parents, but with the love of their parents they move forward and grow into beautiful people. A couple of fun facts about these same babies:

1. Babies naturally hold their breath under water and at the same time their heart rates slow down, helping to conserve oxygen, and blood circulates through the most vital organs.
2. Babies gain knowledge at a staggering rate. By 3 their brain forms 1,000 trillion connections.
3. Babies beyond cute. (no jokes please. Trust me. I have them too.) They are so fragile and codependent that they were created to be cute to the point of having the inate sense to help them.

Amazing right? Not so helpless now are they? But the point to be made here is that there is always strength where there is weakness and vice versa. With God in our lives, there isn't  anything that can't be achieved. We have it in us and He is there for us. Now lets take that knowledge and look at potential. Potential in so many words is basically stored energy. Potential, like energy, is nothing until it is used. Imagine a plug in your house. There's energy there but until its given a use, like for a lamp to light the house, it does nothing. How are you using your inner energy?

“It is true that God may have called you to be exactly where you are. But, it is absolutely vital to grasp that he didn’t call you there so you could settle in and live your life in comfort and superficial peace.”
― Francis Chan, Forgotten God: Reversing Our Tragic Neglect of the Holy Spirit

We've discussed ability. Now lets discuss worth and work. Like faith, potential is nothing without work. Your worth is easiest seen through your works, not to say that you do not have worth if you don't have work to show. So we need to look like our potential. Not just have it. Be productive and make use of yourself. My best quote that I tell people at work and friends is that "No one can teach you how to be you." So go be the best you possible.

...I don't have to worry about not meeting His expectations. God will ensure my success in accordance with His plan, not mine.”
― Francis Chan, Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God

“Christians today like to play it safe. We want to put ourselves in situations where we are safe 'even if there is no God.' But if we truly desire to please God, we cannot live that way.”
― Francis Chan, Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God

Now lets put it together with God in mind. He made us with the capability to love and be fulfilled through Him, but we constantly show it as only wasted potential. We all want the most out of life. What better way to get the most out of it than through God? To all my down and outs out there, know that we are somebody. We are loved and we are important. GO OUT AND BE THE BEST YOU.

My Brother's Keeper

“Religion is a guy in church thinking about fishing.

Spirituality is a guy out fishing thinking about God.” ~ John Fischer

Hopefully I haven't lost my followers in my absence, but I'm here to let you know I'm back. Over the past couple of weeks, I have had a chance to really get to be involved with my brother and what's going on with him. MAN!!! Drama central. LOL. But let me stop exaggerating. He has hit an obstacle in his life. He has to become the next level of a man and it's not easy. Nothing life worth anything ever is. In this journey, he has rededicated himself to God. I am very proud of him for that, but it doesn't come without it's headaches. I mean dang! It's like I am talking to a brick wall. I sit and wonder how in the world am I going to get through to him? Some days I wonder if I should even try. Am I my brother's keeper?

Many people ask this same question. So.... What are we suppose to do? The original context comes from the story of Cain and Abel. In that story Cain and Abel were both trying to be in God's glory but in the end Cain killed Abel because of God's denial of Cain's offering. (Ref. Genesis Ch. 4) In reading this he makes the famous quote of "Am I my brother's keeper?" when God asks Cain where Abel is. Well... Are we? We would think no because we can only control ourselves, but in turn thinking that way, we would not be living in God's way.

James 2:14-17(NIV)

Faith and Deeds

¹⁴ What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them? ¹⁵ Suppose a brother or a sister is without clothes and daily food. ¹⁶ If one of you says to them, “Go in peace; keep warm and well fed,” but does nothing about their physical needs, what good is it? ¹⁷ In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

In James ch. 2, it highlights some of those answers of what to do. When we turn our backs to others, we sometimes display the action of faith without deeds. How can we wish them well, but do nothing to help? Does that mean to do everything for them? No. They in turn still have to do work in the same respect. So where does that lead us? It leads us to the bracelet. WWJD (What would Jesus Do?) We are asked to be Fishers and Sheppards amongst men, and women.  Do we remember the old saying, "You can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink?" Old sayings are relevant because they hold some truths. It's basically saying  to supply the knowledge and open arms to anyone who wants to receive God's glory and blessing (e.g. His works through you), but you can't force something into someone.

So where does this leave us in this story? For me, my brother is asking my advice and I in turn will do my best to be a guide through God. When we are strategically place in life by God, lets not block our blessings to others. Give freely and in return you will be rewarded. You have the perfect playbook. The Bible. Following God is not the easiest path all the time but the reward is worth the time and effort. Encourage not only questions, but the right questions to God when we are downtrodden. Be there for each other. When times are tough, keep your head up and trudge on. I believe in you and in God. May you have a blessed day and change a life today.

The Struggle..... Is Real!!!!

Well I woke up to get me a cold pop and then I thought somebody was barbequing. I said oh lord Jesus it’s a fire. Then I ran out, I didn’t grab no shoes or nothin’ Jesus, I ran for my life. And then the smoke got me, I got bronchitis ain’t nobody got time for that. - Sweet Brown

“Every worthwhile accomplishment, big or little, has its stages of drudgery and triumph: a beginning, a struggle, and a victory.” ― Mahatma Gandhi

Last night, or better yet this morning, I had a long talk with my brother. He had come to help me move my car back to my house. Needless to say, following directions was never his strong point. LOL. Anyways, After we were done with the car, we started to head back to his car so he could go home. On the way, he told me about his struggles. MAN!!! To hear him tell of his struggles made me feel like he was sent off to war and was the only commando left. I shook my head and asked him, "What are you doing with yourself?" He continued to tell me about it and the more I listened, the more I got angry. I mean, I was pissed. I asked the question again, and once again he came up with another excuse. Finally I stopped him. I told him that I loved him and that I am not trying to tell him how to live but for him to see what's in front of him. You see, he was waiting for a break to happen for him. He was wanting something to happen in his life for him for his struggles to go away. I told him sternly that if you think like an ignorant person, you will live like one. I want to say that I'm about seven years older than him (I can't remember LOL) and said that I know what the next seven years of your life can look like and believe me, there aren't any breaks.

I tell this story to show a key thing in our lives. The struggle is real my friends. Life is full of options and free will. It was a great gift that God had given us to live in and like little kids, we destroy everything. With life comes choices. Here is a passage of the test and answers that Jesus went through:

Jesus Is Tested in the Wilderness

4 Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, 2 where for forty days he was tempted[a] by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry.

3 The devil said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.”

4 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone.’[b]”

5 The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world. 6 And he said to him, “I will give you all their authority and splendor; it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. 7 If you worship me, it will all be yours.”

8 Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Worship the Lord your God and serve him only.’[c]”

9 The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down from here. 10 For it is written:

“‘He will command his angels concerning you
    to guard you carefully;
11 they will lift you up in their hands,
    so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’[d]”

12 Jesus answered, “It is said: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’[e]”

13 When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time.

After forty days and nights, Jesus was done fasting. Imagine one day without eating. Now forty. Harsh stuff huh? The devil then tried to give him a break by suggesting what to do with his ability. He declined it. He understood that any of the things that was offered him were not long term fixes. So why is it that we always look for the quick fix? 

In this lesson I want you to dig deep and ask yourself if you are singing the woe is me song. Really understand that walking the path of Christianity is not an easy one but God's reward will be well worth it.

May the Faith be with you

"What you know about having faith in something you can't see? Tell me how much you believe? What you know about feeling something that you can't even touch? What you know about smelling something that you can't even breathe, but when the world drives you out, and your gas tank is on E, and all the faith that you have just ain't all the faith that you need. All the faith that I have, just ain't all the faith that I need...." - "Nothing is Stopping You" by Big Sean




Hey everyone. I know it's been a minute since you've read about my latest teachings, but right now I'm just going through a study that has gotten my attention. I'm learning about how to love God and I have really been on a humbling spree, so please forgive my absence. I hope all is well with you all and I hope that in the last lessons you've really had a chance to incorporate God in a new way towards your life. With that being said lets begin.




Happy Father's day to all my parents out there. I do not want to say dads because we all have a hand in raising our children as well as the children in our vicinity. I want to start by saying thank you God for what you have given me and for being a great dad in our lives. I wish that I listened sooner because you were right. As you read my quote I know it may sound crazy and confusing coming from a rapper, but I really loved that verse from him. "All the faith that you have, just ain't all the faith that you need..." Wow... Imagine believing in something. Now think about how much effort you put into it. How much faith do you believe that Santa Claus will give you the present you wanted? I'm still waiting on my Dodge Viper. We really don't believe that Santa is out there do we? Our faith in that is almost nonexistent. Now think about asking God for something. How much faith do you put into that? What if I told you that it's not enough? What if I told you that some of you put as much faith in God as you do Santa? Does that tick you off? Well just really look at yourself. You don't have to tell anyone this response. Just yourself. What do you really see? Do you feel like God has truly made a way for you? Do you feel like you really believe in Him? Do you really feel like you give one hundred percent to Him?


I don't feel I did. I will tell you that I personally feel that I am not there in my faith at that point. I really had to finally open my eyes and see the mess I made of my life. I believed that God existed. Never doubted that, but I can't say that I really honestly felt that God will fix everything. I wanted to take things into my own hands. I got this. No I don't. I don't have this. I am even more helpless by saying that. My tank was on "Spiritual E" or empty. It seems like we all ride like that nowadays in our own cars. LOL. But why? Is it because we feel like the prices are too high? Or is it because we only want to do enough to get by?

Ephesians 2:8 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith--and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--

Matthew 17:20 He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you. "

I remember my mom always teaching us, Tuajana and I, that no matter what you do, be the best. Even if it's being a janitor or a garbage man. Be the best. Oh man! School was like that too for her. (Maybe it's that Asian thing LOL) In school, you had to strive for perfection. No C's. No B's. Not even a 95%. A and 100%, sometimes 105% if there was a bonus question. I remember the first C I had to bring home. I was scared to death. My mom was going to have her fury on that behind when she got home. Mr. Antone had called her to schedule an appointment to meet with her about it. I remember seeing other kids so happy with a C. They were smiling and talking about the Jordans that were promised to them, but not I. I was going to feel the wrath of the ninja assassin. He told my mom that he didn't know what was going on with me and that it wasn't like me to do that. Just great. Thanks Mr. Hershel Antone. We got home and it was Switch City. I can still feel those whelps across my legs. I was punished severely for what I did. On top of that, no TV for a month. To fast forward all of that, I thought I was slick about watching TV but I got caught every time and every time I got my tail whooped. But when I got older, I realized something. I was punished because I didn't give 100%. I tried to get by. I wanted to live like everybody else, but do I really want to be like everybody else? God's chosen are few, but not because he doesn't love everybody. It's because of our faith in following Him. Most of us are not trying to give all of us to Him. We want to give just enough for us so we don't feel bad. Well that's not enough.


Now I don't want you to think that I am on a judging spree because I'm not. I am not God nor do I possess the power of telepathy. Only you know what you do, but what I will say is that we have to live life by 100% in Him. It's not easy, but then again, anything worth having isn't going to just be given to you like an entitlement. I want you to read these words and feel the joy of wanting to do better. It's father's day and He is our ultimate father. He gave us life. He showed us grace. He showed us how to love. Oh my God. What an amazing father! I want to wake up now to tell Him thank you. I want to honor Him like he deserves. I want to be a cheerful giver in my love and faith to Him. I don't want to come to Him only when I need something, like we do our fathers. I WANT TO GIVE MY ALL. Have a great day everyone. Thank you for joining me in this journey and the patience you all have with my absence.

I did my best..... I think....

Hebrews 12:14 Strive for peace with everyone, and for the holiness without which no one will see the Lord.

Proverbs 10:4-5 A slack hand causes poverty, but the hand of the diligent makes rich. He who gathers in summer is a prudent son, but he who sleeps in harvest is a son who brings shame

A lot of times in my life I wonder if I was good enough. I was never naturally talented in sports. I was never good at video games. I was NEVER any good at being smooth with the ladies lol. On a more serious note, I thought I was never good for God. I would make up excuses all the time on why I wasn't and when I would be able to be in his grace. That time never really came until I started to understand why I said those things. I was ashamed. I was ashamed like Adam and Eve. Through my life I disobeyed God constantly. And on top of that, found comfort in the conviction. The thing that I didn't see was God's graciousness. He still blessed me even though a lot of times I was undeserving. Now as you read this I may lose some of you. What I like to write about is how Christianity and life are hand in hand. The same works that you see in the bible can easily be applied to your everyday life. How many times do we tell ourselves (never anybody else) that we are not good enough for (fill in the blank)? Who said you weren't? 

Colossians 3:23-24 Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.

If you asked those questions, you need to know a key component in the answers. Everything has a purpose. A purpose will dictate the outcome. When I was not naturally talented in sports, I practiced and worked diligently to make myself better. My purpose was to become a better athlete and not let my restrictions hold me back. I wasn't the tallest. I wasn't the fastest. But I was determined. No one could say I didn't do my best. When I do God's work, no one can say I am not doing my best. If you view the way love is, love is open-ended. It's ongoing. There's always more to do. When God works in us, it's through love and it's ongoing. So when you work in his light, you can never go wrong. If you have even just started in your faith, you're still doing your best.

I want you today to say to yourself, I will do my best. I will not forget that as long as I'm with you God, I can go wrong. In You my Lord, I will do my best.

Stay Blessed.